Eilish revealed that the final yr had been a tough one for her. “I used to be so sad final yr,” she mentioned. “I used to be so sad, and I used to be so, like, joyless.”
Due to her newfound fame, she misplaced her previous mates and saved getting acknowledged in public. She fell right into a scientific melancholy.
“I do not need to be darkish, however I genuinely did not suppose I’d make it to 17,” she mentioned.
“Did you suppose that you’d do one thing to your self?” King requested.
“Yeah,” Eilish replied. “I take into consideration this one time I used to be in Berlin and I used to be alone in my lodge. And I keep in mind there was a window proper there. I keep in mind crying as a result of I used to be fascinated by how the way in which that I used to be going to die was, I used to be going to do it.”
King requested Eilish if her lyric “I wanna finish me” in her track “Bury a Pal,” is definitely about herself.
“It was,” Eilish mentioned, including, “It additionally rhymed.”
Within the track she sings, “Right now, I am thinkin’ in regards to the issues which can be lethal/The way in which I am drinkin’ you down/Like I wanna drown, like I wanna finish me.”
Requested why she determined to dwell, Eilish grew emotional as she mentioned, “my mother.”
Her mother, Maggie Baird, additionally seems within the interview.